Trying.

June 25, 2007

Another day for all of us. But today sure is better than the past days. Well, for me.

 

And really. Life must go on. Whether we like it or not, some pages in our story are better left unsaid and be forgotten in some way than just keeping them alive, making us feel the same pain over and over again. But I had to admit, this is harder than hard as you think. I mean, you kind of forget them sometimes, then after a while, you'll find yourself reliving the memories. It's more painful because you'll be waken up in the middle of dreaming and you'll evoke that you can't have them back.

 

One of the direst things you'll ever know is that, people somehow stopped missing you. But there must be something, right? Something that can put things back the way they were. Something that must've hindered it from happening. But, if what happened is the best way to be done, then, leave it there. Who knows? I mean, we're not yet at world's end. Maybe, everything will be made up someday. Not now.

 

The truth.

June 23, 2007

I entered a world counterfeited by my thoughts, thoughts that tell me not to open my eyes to the fact that I feel this twinge badly. And now, I am baffled with how I should feel.

 

I'm sorry if you can't understand what I'm saying or something, but it's tough for me to express this thing. But I'll try. I'm sure it's better this way. I mean, being honest.

 

Frankly speaking, I never thought this would be a big deal for me. I was aware it's gonna happen, I was ready. Assurance was something I believed I had but then, I lost it.

 

What I had was more than a settled and lingered instant. And all of a sudden, movement stopped and everybody stopped for more than the length of that moment. And then, it was gone.